restaurant cooking shows make me want to eat at home

ok, this is definitely a rant. i love cooking. i love cooking shows. nothing makes me happier than to have a spare hour and spend it with jamie, ina, nigella, martha, yan, trish, michael, any of them.

but cooking shows that are about renovating restaurants or that hells kitchen show just turn my stomach. all that behind the scenes stuff needs to stay behind the scenes for me!

the ironic part is for a while i was thinking about going back to school to become a chef. after watching all these shows, i realized that i would have to work 10x as hard cooking as i do writing. and that cooking would no longer be recreation for me.

cooking, even baking, relaxes me. there's nothing i like better than to make a new recipe. even making a big mess of the kitchen doesn't bother me. the only thing that's disappointing is that the results don't last all that long. maybe that's why i usually make large quantities when i make something complicated.